Mindfull what????

mindNo, I am not about to go all New Age on you.  But, I am going to tell you something that has helped me, that I walked away from and have now returned to because it helped me.  That’s right meditation.

Early on in this journey, my psychologist suggested I consider looking at mindfulness training to help deal with all the little fun side effects of PTSD an d to help me ground myself in the moment.  She went so far as to suggest an App to use so that I could simply do it at home and not have to subject myself to going out to a meditation group.  Having nothing to lose, I decided to give it a try.

I did the 10 day program for beginners and I can honestly say that I noticed a difference in my outlook and how I dealt with things that came up.  It changed my perspective to a degree and helped to calm me.  Despite these positives, I stopped.  Looking back on it, I think that this was the first time that I really allowed PTSD to win and push something out of my routine that was put there to help.  It was a direct blow against me trying to regain myself and put a condition of PTSD.  It took a number of months to figure this out.

But, like everything else that happens on this journey, you learn something new about yourself, and others but that is a whole different post.  What I learned is that you have power over PTSD but you can easily lose that power, particularly if you are not staying focussed on what needs to be done.  So, I have decided it is time to take back that power, especially considering that I have been feeling that the PTSD and Depression has been taking too much control and power away from me lately.

I will simply say that sitting down for the session just felt right.  I quickly settled in and for the next 10 minutes, I just sat there in the moment.  It felt good.  I finished relaxed and focussed on the day.  I guess sometimes, yu need to stumble backwards to learn what is needed to keep moving forward.

 

Shameless plug here……. for anyone wanting to know, I use the Headspace App that is available on Android and apple products.  I paid for it myself (it was not a sponsored gift) and it was worth every penny. #Headspace

 

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